Love is never boastful.
Love is never enough.
Love is patient.
Love is kind.
Love is blind.
Love is forgiveful.
Life is beautiful when you’re loved.
*jiwang mode sekali sekala*
xD
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Firstly, congratulations to the newly elected MPPs (Student Representative Council). Please² give IPBA a makeover. Thanks.
I could not sleep (right now is 3.10 am) and so many things are boggling my mind.
I feel like a loser. I couldn’t even cry when I feel like to. I couldn’t even feel the pain even though I’m supposed to. I just feel lifeless, like my soul is somewhere else and my body is empty (that’s the best analogy I can give).
I was asking people to insult me because I could not feel any pain inside my heart and it’s very weird (abnormal) feeling. Girls don’t even dare to try. Boys? It turned out that I insulted them instead. (Huu~~ini merupakan cabaran dan peluang wahai kawan-kawan!)
Sometimes in life, although you know that past is past, but still, you couldn’t forget about it because it shapes and teaches you about life.
To err is human, to forgive is divine, but to forget??
The play count for ‘How to save a life’ by The Fray has already reached number 202. Yeah. I soooo need to get a life.
I need to send in an important assignment this Monday but I did nothing.
I tried to sleep, but I end up blogging.
I tried to get a life, but life picks up on me instead.
*take this dagger and stab me in my heart*
The highway not taken
(A modern version after Robert Frost’s)
Two lanes diverged in a PLUS highway
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one driver, numb my foot
And looked in front as far as I could
To where it goes at the exit.
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was bright and more cars;
Though as for that the passing there
Had sworn them really about the same.
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no tyre had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two highways diverged in Malaysia, and I–
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference.
ESQ: A new life
Many successful CEOs, executive managers, businessman, etc took ESQ course and change their life. ESQ (Emotional Spiritual Quotient) is not a new thing. It’s just that we’ve forgotten about it. It’s already been created 1400 years ago. ESQ is for everyone and it takes place globally. Regardless what religion you are. ESQ is a new way of life. Imagine how great these people. They even gave talk to the professors at Oxford University. (And there are numerous fascinating numbers and statistics being shown yesterday but I failed to stuff my head with everything–I’m just a weak human 🙁 ). The numbers of alumni members simply is getting bigger, globally. Their alumni members is not common people. Like I said, businessman, rich and famous intelligent people. The company who wants to do staff training and improve human resources send the staffs to ESQ talks. And I’m not talking crap. There are thousands people gave good testimonial about ESQ and probably now the number have reached millions.
ESQ is the new trend (Among elites and rich people for this time being). Why do we need ESQ? We only realise this when at the end of the day, we don’t know why we accumulate our properties, dollars and so forth. We only realise the need of ESQ in our life, then there are many intelligent people give up easily as they do not know what’s the purpose they are being created.
A glimpse from yesterday’s presentation: The Golden Gate Bridge in the US, is world’s finest architecture, but on January 2008, Mr. Arry went there and tell us the tragic story of the bridge. The numbers of suicide was being kept from the public, however, as the numbers reached 10K, the government decided to put high fence, to prevent people from jumping from the Golden Gate. Counselling line was also being placed on the bridge, hoping to give hope for losers (I call them losers because they quit from life). It’s no longer be the symbol of the greatness of United States. They are considered successful nation, but how many lead life peacefully and happily?
Yesterday, IPBA had ESQ preview and I don’t have to pay for it. I was so excited to come because I know it costs me 1K++ if I want to join it. (I was interested with ESQ since I watched the videos in Plymouth). So yeah, Mr Firdaus Djambri, gave talk and he is funny. Probably due to language differences (Malaysian Malay language and Indonesia’s), there are some stuffs that people don’t understand. But yeah, thanks to my exposure to Indonesian sinetron and movies, his jokes are understandable. Oh, did I tell you he’s cute? His Indonesian accent as well. Never heard such enthusiastic talk, for 22 years. He doesn’t give up although the crowd shows boring faces.
But what I had yesterday was only a glimpse of it (ESQ preview). Just a sneek peek and to know how great it is, is to taste it. So people, I highly encourage you to go to ESQ talks and experience a better life after that. May Allah bless the efforts of ESQ trainers and Insya Allah, we can make this world a better place and lead a peaceful life in this world and hereafter.
So tomorrow (16 Feb) they are going to conduct a session for university students and they give a very very good offer. You only pay RM 550 once and you can join the alumni and attend the talks as many as you want for the rest of your life. Wow. Very attempting offer but not for this time being 🙁
More info: http://www.esqway165.com/
Tagged by Nisa: Life
10 years ago
Was studying in a primary school, drilled for UPSR exam. Bullying some friends. Quite hectic schedule I had actually. Morning at Sekolah Kebangsaan Seri Manjung. One and a half hour lunch break, then go to Sekolah Petang or Sekolah KAFA (Agama). Then I got like half hour to prep for tution. After Maghrib, read Quran. After Isya’ do homework. Sometime too bored (read: lazy), I’ll just skip the homework and watch TV. Got loads of cool action TV series like Knight Riders, MacGyvers, and Robocop.
Randomness
1. Name one person who made you laugh last night.
Nicholas Tse.
2. What were you doing at 0800?
I was still sleeping. (I know. I’m bloody unproductive).
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Surfing for SBPI Sabak Bernam map. Have to do some homework before going there.
4. What happened to you in 2006?
I remember that I’ve been really sick and loads of trials and turbulence.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
“Really?” to Omark @ 1209.
6. How many beverages did you have today?
A mug of MILO.
7. What color is your hairbrush?
Black.
8. What was the last thing you paid for?
My driving license.
9. Where were you last night?
In front of television, watching CNY movies and Dil To Pagal Hai.
10. What color is your front door?
Brownish and orange-y.
11. Where do you keep your change?
In my main purse and another coin purse.
12. What’s the weather like today?
Sunny and cloudy.
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Cookies and cream, or cheaper version: vanilla and oreo biscuit.
15. Do you want to cut your hair?
I really want to!
16. Are you over the age of 25?
No I’m not.
17. Do you talk a lot?
Depends.
18. Do you watch the O.C.?
No I don’t.
19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Steve adalah. Steven tadek.
20. Do you make up your own words?
Accidentally, yes. Lately I’m confused with BM and English and tend to mix them up and confuse myself.
21. Are you a jealous person?
Sometimes.
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Azwan. He’s a gay guy who supports Arsenal.
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Khairunnisa. She’s my mate since primary and we only realise that we share same ex-crush by the age of 23.
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
Omar Khayam.
25. What does the last text message you received say?
From Alin @ 1137: Ahahaha. Biarlah. Saje nk menguji kesetiaan. Haha. Amin lah mimpi u tu (when I told her I dreamt her as my bridesmaid)
26. Do you chew on your straw?
If there’s a stuck cendol or red bean, then yes.
27. Do you have curly hair?
Mine is in between, they call it wavy. Curly at the end.
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
I think the pharmacy. My allergy is getting worse when I’m in Manjung.
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
C****. She’s equipped with vulgar vocabularies that sometimes make me want to piss in my pants. (Name is not reveal for the sake of upholding her dignity).
30. What was the last thing you ate?
Gardenia Toast ‘Em (and I toast them again before I ate).
31. Will you get married in the future?
Of course. It’s nature’s call.
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
Shroom. Scary.
33. Is there anyone you like right now?
Daniel Wu.
34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
Lasagna. Like few weeks ago.
35. Are you currently depressed?
Yes. The pound sterling currency rate drop to the longkang and my allowance is not banked in yet. Oh, assignments make me depress as well. I wonder who on earth enjoy their assignment?
36. Did you cry today?
Nowai. The tears in my eyes is due to dust allergy.
37. Why did you answer and post this?
Because I want to?
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey
I’m sorry but, the madness ends here.
resolutions
salam ma’al hijrah. ada yang buat bubur asyura ke? tak buat pun, merasa makan je la. I arrived in Manjung last night, riding Plusliner. Debor juga naik bas itu. Tapi itulah, “mati kat mana-mana pun boleh”.
Ok. There are ups and downs in 2007, but I think it’s the most saddening year in my life.
I lost my aunt and not able to call my family as I was in Dublin, Ireland.
I fall sick often. 2007 witnesses how fragile I am. Being allergic to many stuffs.
Dissertation was pain in the ___, especially when something bad comes in between, coping with dissertation and my unstable emotion is hard, but I managed to do it with supports from people who love me.
Leaving MARJON means I am leaving my luxury life. No cleaner to clean up my bedroom and house. No 24/7 internet connection. No individual (read: princess) bedroom. No more trips to ASDA. I no longer have chance to binge various types of cheesecakes, Haagen Dasz ice cream, Ben and Jerry ice cream not to forget, chocolate, Italian food, and many more! *sob*
OK. my maal hijrah resolutions.
1. improve, each and every day, in every sense.
2. have passion and faith in Malaysian education.
3. read more (Quran verses and books)
4. lose weight until 53 kilos.
5. not to be brokenhearted again.
6. climb hill/mountain
7. go to gym at least once a week
8. save more money for rainy days and my future.
9. buy a nintendo wii sports package (then I’ll stop going to the gym)
10. love people more and love more people.
I will evaluate my self at the end of this year. I don’t plan to do much this year because I’m bloody mentally tired. I don’t want to aim to do something big, but I plan to go with the flow.
Wonder why I don’t talk about relationship (read: engagement and wedding) anymore? coz I’m a grown up girl and talking about it, when you’re not sure of it, hurts. Especially when it is not menjadik. Hence, the #5 resolution takes place this year.
Life as a story
THE CHARACTERS
Our fateful life is a story as the great Shakespeare puts it “Life’s a stage and all men and women are merely players”. Whether you hate or love literature, life is a literature.We are the director, the actor and the entire production team. Our dream is our inspiration to write a great script. We can choose to be a minor or major character. A hero or villain. We can choose to be Derek Sheperd or Prince Charming. We can be a lonely loser in the street, trying to find five cents coin, instead of making good dollars by working. And not to forget, in our life, we always meet with new character, which gives a fresh beginning or tribulations to the plot, or a meaningless character which dies in the middle or at the end. We can be whatever we want to be, and choose to have a great or mundane story because it is the people who move the story.
THE PLOT
A great story requires a great plot or script, which means it comes from a great writer. A great story is what we expect to see, when we pay our cinema ticket. If you want your life story to be remembered after people coming out of the cinema, you need to give an impact. A change of perception perhaps. Is it worth for the next five months after you get out of your cinema seat, and remember what had Erra Fazira wore for this and that scene? Life’s like that. Go for a great plot instead of fancy costume. People don’t remember you, for your fashion sense, but your deeds and lines. Because why? Fashion is quickly outdated and it keeps on having new design and line every day. Have you ever heard the say “that is soooo last season”?
THE ENDING
Story without an ending, is never a story. Even the novel “The neverending story” has ending. Obviously different stories have different endings. Fairy tales usually have happily-ever-after ending, but have we ever live a fairy-tale life? We can choose to end our story with great impact, or live it hanging, unresolved. Great story gives a satisfying sigh when the cinema lights switched on. When the audience left the cinema, they will remember the ending of the story. They will remember how great it is, and tell to other people about it. It’s the choice of the director, that is us, to give a great ending to our life story.
We choose what we want to be
We choose our line
We choose our clothes
We choose our crew (friends)
We choose our ending.
It’s our choice to have a great story or not.
Over and done
Believe it or not, I have officially finished studying in MARJON. I had last session (drama workshop) with Katy this morning. I’m going to miss everything about MARJON and Plymouth. The place where I learn so many things and the place where I learn about life as well. I know I will miss this place, as my heart feels like not wanting to go back to Malaysia. However, Malaysia awaits me, and whether I like it or not, I still need to go back and do my final year in KL.
Time flown. I thought it was Monday yesterday, and today is already Friday. Where had the Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday gone? *sigh* I haven’t done my packing yet and many other stuffs that need to be done before I go back. Gosh. How time envies me!
So long farewell Plymouth hoe
I shall see you once more
One day it will be
A day for you and me
*Hugs*
Amma is much successful than Juan Mann (remember the guy who hugs people in Sydney? with a cool song from sickpuppies).She gave away 26 million hugs man! While Juan Mann’s campaign is banned, Amma is welcomed globally and thousands are willing to wait for hours just to get a hug from Amma. I think our society is lacking of family institution’s love. All these materialism makes us forget what’s important and makes us leave people who love us. We are lacking the essence of life. That is love and embracing loved ones. Oh BTW, Amma has a website as well. Well, what do you expect? She’s so successful in NY, and she’s now in London! Gosh. These orang putih are kekurangan kasih sayang la I rasa. Luckily I live in Islam and we stress the importance of family institution. I think it’s simple. Amma gives genuine love and doesn’t ask for requited one.