Goodbye note

You are always patient with me.

Always encouraging me to work harder and be better.

The time that we have is so short.

With you, I don’t have to pretend being someone else and the serenity that I have when I’m with you, is irreplaceable.

It’s not easy to encourage mahmudah attitude, unless I’m with you.

You are departing. I will miss you so. Goodbye, adieu, it’s hard to let you go.

Hopefully, Allah will help us to meet again soon. Ameen.

Good bye Ramadhan, it’s hard to let you go.

 

 

Being 23 years old.

Alhamdulillah (all praise to Allah). Allah gives me another chance to breath and taste this life. He allows me to live for 23 years. What would life be without Allah? I couldn’t imagine. It must be the worst of the worst. Lowest of the lowest. Life would be meaningless and restless. *scary* I know the fact that to err is human, and I am merely human who is always imperfect. And we as human should always ask for forgiveness from him. We always need help from Him and depending on Him. Merely a slave who needs His blessings and love (rahmat and rahmah). I wonder what would happen if God is angry at me? That is my greatest fear.

Today is UPSR as well and I miss my Year 4 pupils. They always flatter me with nice words and drawings. A girl told me “teacher I want to get you a cake but then that time is puasa”. I replied, “it’s OK. I don’t mind”. They told me that they want to get me something special for my birthday but I said “Your good result in PKSR and UPSR is the best present for me”. Alhamdulillah they agreed to study hard.

Celebrating birthday with my friends is really nice. I really appreciate their effort. But being blessed by Allah is priceless. I have another chance to improve myself as a Muslimah and living this life to the fullest 🙂

I already got my cupcakes. My pupils even gave me advanced birthday present (that was way before merdeka celebration). What else do I want apart from God’s blessings and happiness in life?

I thank god for giving me good friends as well. I thank god that I learned from them and living this life and making me being me. Being 23 makes me think more about life. Life in thereafter.

Metafora kad library

Pagi ni aku beriya nak buat tugasan, meminjam buku dari library eltc menggunakan my friend’s card (apparently arini tertinggal purse sbb smlm tukar henbeg *aish*). jadi sekejap je la meminjam nya kerana dah tahu kedudukan buku tersebut dan my speed of walking pun lebih kurang macam walkathon juga. haha.

so, pasal tajuk entry ni, in eltc library, if we were to borrow academic books, we need to stake our library card. so i stake her card in order to borrow the book. so my fren’s card, sepatutnya laminated, but it is not because last time she cut her card because it doesn’t fit her purse. the card is soft and pulpous, as it has been used avidly and it is not protected from liquid. tak kisah la, janji dapat pinjam buku.

then i want to return the book. so i get back my fren’s card and say thank you to the librarian bla3, then walk back to the hostel. on the way, still holding the card, i kind of have a weird feeling. i pressed the card. i just realised that her card is laminated. how awesome. kakak library had laminated the card when i put it in library’s stake. i bet my friend will like her card laminated because she initially planned to do so.

then i left the card on her bed, and this evening i asked her, ‘do you notice that your eltc library card is laminated?’. she was frantically said ‘what?? lemme have a look’. and she was joyous.

i  can elate this situation with the kindness that god has offered us. we often not see the kindness, because it is done in transparent way. and we never notice the kindness that is offered in subtle way because the great act of kindness, is never aloud.

Book review: Ayat-ayat cinta, verses of love.

Bismillah. In the name of Allah. Peace to be upon you. I hope you are blessed with the barakah of health and iman (faith). For a week, I was away and did not manage to access the internet. Alhamdulillah. I am at my hometown and managed to write an entry.

For those who are seeking to read good books this summer, I would suggest you to read this entry because I just finished read an Indonesian novel entitled “Ayat-ayat cinta” or literally means “verses of love”. The cover itself already interests me. I am not familiar with the author actually (Habiburrahman El Shirazy). So, somehow, I have judged the book by its’ cover. Ops! I wonder who is the owner of the beautiful eyes. Subhanallah! (All praises to Allah). Many have written reviews for this great novel looks like I’m the latecomer!, but still, I insist to write it so that I can find calm in my heart. Heheh. I have finished read other books but this is the one that makes me feel uneasy if I don’t write a book review about it. Continue reading

Sibuk dan mencari inspirasi

Ok. Third year, busy year. But I need to seize it because the time wasted won’t be replace with the same one. Betul tak? Finally my Thursday is free without any activity. Yea~! Kalau tak, lepas kelas Mike, kena gegas pergi ke Barbican. Dah la pening kepala, nak buat benda kreatif2 yang memerlukan my mind to rest and be inspired.

Whew. Thursday yang bahagia. *grin*

So basically I need inspiration to my assignment. Comparative Education. I need to compare education system of British and Malaysia. Anyone have any resources do send it to my email. I would really appreciate it. I only have 2 weeks left, and I my days are always filled with activities. Even if I have free time, I would be too tired to write. Then I will watch movies and catch up things that I miss. Then, bila masa kerja nak siap? Whew.

Today in Michael’s class we planned our schedule to do Comparative Education assignment. Heheh, manja tak kitaorang? Then in Mike’s class buat clay animation dan basically takde la dia expect our product secanggih Wallace and Gromit, it’s just that we need to know how’s the process and how to edit it later. Oh, inspirasi memang amat diperlukan di kala ini. And usually inspiration come when I meet ‘Him’. And semua Dia yang bagi, so takleh nak claim credit sorang diri. If so, say “All praise to Allah, the one who gave me all these”. Huhuh. Peringatan buat diri sendiri juga. Ok, if anyone wants to inspire me to do dissertation on ‘Nursery Rhymes’, please do so. I would appreciate it very much.

Read this, that’ll inspire you to practise to read to your children

bila diri diuji bahagian III

hurm, bila nak taruk title, rase cam, “ler, dah ada 3 part oredi? banyaknye…” so rasenye pasni perkara yang sama, kena beri tajuk lain2 pula. well, dalam hidup mmg akan ada ujian kehidupan kan? bukan saya sahaja. ujian kali ni, futur. xtau la bole ke tulis tentg rasa futur dlm blog ni, huhuh, saya budak baru belajar.

semalam juga rasanya saya telah membuat keputusan besar dalam hidup saya. bukan senang. banyak faktor perlu difikirkan. dan menjaga kemaslahatan dan hati orang2 yang penting dalam hidup saya juga penting. tapi menjaga hubungan dengan Allah itu yang utama. tapi itulah, saya manusia lemah dan bodoh, perlu dibimbing, dan telah diberikan sumber ilham dan peringatan (lihat quranul karim 39:87) namun, masih juga perlukan sesuatu untuk mendokong iman dan quwwah. bagaimanakah?

saya sayang jalan yang saya pilih sekarang namun banyak hasutan, bisikan serta ujian melanda. liqa’ lepas saya belajar, kita hanya ada 2 jalan (serta merta saya ingat poem ‘the road not taken’.

  1. Jalan highway (ada tol tak?) yang disinari lamp post yang banyak, berturap rata, seronok rasanya kalau memacu MPV Ssang Yong kita di atasnya. namun, jalan itu ada fatamorgana, membuatkan kita (nahnu) tak nampak, tebing curam 80 darjah yang bakal menarik MPV Ssang Yong kita ke dalam lembah gelap lagi durjana. sekelip mata. iskhh… ngeri.
  2. Jalan kampung yang terperosok, hatta GPS kita pun tak mampu detect jalan tu. Tak masuk dalam mana2 peta GPS. Jalan itu berliku, mabuk pening kita dibuatnya. Bumpy lagi kasar turapannya. Ada juga lopak2 lumpur yang mengotorkan tayar MPV Ssang Yong kita. Brek kita juga bakal mengalami dehydration (haus la tuh), badan MPV takyah cerita la. Pokok2 dan semak berduri di tepi memang jahat. Mencederakan badan MPV kita. isk, kenapa la bodoh sangat lalu jalan ni? bodoh ker? sebab di penghujung jalan, kita akan bertemu pelangi cantik, ciptaan Allah yang amat perfect dan sebuah kampung yang aman damai. penduduknya ramai dan baik pula. cantik serba sebi kampung itu. iskh… bayangkan betapa indahnya tempat itu dan rasa bahagia yang bakal kita kecapi.

Kita perlu memilih antara 2 jalan itu. ‘Jalan Kesenangan’ yang bakal membawa kita ke lurah jahanam atau ‘Jalan Kesusahan’ yang bakal membawa kita ke sebuah kampung yang cantik. Anda pilih yang mana?

PS: Oh, saya masih lagi berasa futur…

PPS: terjumpa video pagi ni di youtube (antara most viewed), bagaimana dengan menuang air COKE, bisa menjelmakan cacing2 di atas daging pork. anda mahu minum coke lagi?? ngahaha. mungkin tidak selepas melihat ini. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WDBAG0KPLcs
(tak boleh embed video, kena ziarah page youtube itu sendiri, maaf. saya bukan directornya. barangkali dia buat begitu kerana terlalu ramai yang telah mencabuli hak copyright beliau, dan saya rasa, pakcik ni bukan muslim-melihat kepada previous videoyang di post oleh beliau.

Islam dan cinta

Cinta memang indah. Cinta itu juga fitrah. Islam tidak menolak cinta kerana islam tidak bertentangan dengan fitrah manusia. Perasaan indah itu pun diberikan oleh Allah. Dalam agama Islam yang syumul (perfect) dan melengkapi ini tidak menolak fitrah cinta namun ada batasan yang ditetapkan kerana Allah tahu akan kelemahan manusia, dorongan hawa nafsu dan pujukan syaitan yang tak pernah penat menggoda manusia ke jalan neraka.

Jadi, kepada yang mahu tahu, kuliah pengurusan cinta ini
Audio ini ialah kuliah pengurusan cinta dari perspektif Islam, dan bagaimana langkah-langkah yang dianjurkan oleh Islam kepada yang sedang merasa nikmat bercinta.
dengarkan~!